Was the question of the week.
Firstly, I need to apologise to my family, friends, team members, hairdresser, hair colourist, postman and generally anyone I came across this past week who has been subjected to this question, quickly followed by a ‘viewing’ of all the recent photos taken of me.
Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not a celebrity who is followed by paparazzi all day, I’m just someone who is ok with having my photo taken. In fact, as long as you give me time to fluff my hair and apply lip gloss – I’m often photo ready.
So why new photos?
Well I’m in the process of setting up my website and all the experts tell me ‘make sure you get professional photographs taken’. Lucky for me I know someone who has a passion for photography and has just finished their course. We agreed a time last week and for three hours I pretended to be some sort of super model, in fact at one point there was even a breeze blowing through the windows which felt like a wind machine.
This week was the big reveal, I was actually excited, I’d never had my photo taken professionally before, well except at a work awards ceremony years ago.
I saw the email land and there, in full techni-colour, full screen were a series of photos that kind of looked like me, I think they were me, were they me? did I really look like that?
This surprise, actually more shock, began my constant questioning of anyone I came across – ‘do I really look like that?’
As I began discussing my photos with people around me, I realised that how I see myself, isn’t how others see me. How they see themselves isn’t necessarily how I see them. So who is right?
Am I delusional? do they have defective eye sight? are we all right in our own way? does it really matter? I guess it only matters if I let it!
Someone asked me this week ‘is there anything you would change about yourself?’ I thought long and hard. Would I really change anything about myself if I could? All I know for sure today is that apart from some extra curves that have no business being on my body, I wouldn’t change a thing.
I’ve come to the conclusion this week that it doesn’t really matter what others think of me, it only matters what I think of myself!
Thank you Olga for being generous with your time, taking some great photos and laughing with me. We shall always have ‘half a smile’.